Early Blues?

Am feeling the post holidays blues already...

Depressed Dogs

It's very strange that dogs commonly  howl depressingly here everytime the speakers blared from mosques five times a day.

Upside down root

Losing a loved one is painful, an experience that is difficult to face at the time of loss. It's memories brings pain over time, albeit less painful as its numbed over time.

Losing my one and only child and knowing I will never have another is a totally different thing to swallow all together. The pain at the time of loss is the least and the beginning of an eternal avalanche of ever increasing torture that is delivered blow after blow on a daily basis.  I am still receiving it after 8 long years. That painful torture can be described as a hopeless future that stems from a loss in the past. The root is nursed by the bleak future, unlike the root of a tree that supplies and contributes to the future growth of the tree. Cutting off or forgetting the root doesn't work here.

Two things

For the past eight years, every day I think of only two things. One, How would my daughter look, talk, behave and and smile and laugh with me if she is alive and well today. Two, why did this had to happen and continue to torture me daily.
As one who believes in God and His son Jesus Christ, I no longer blame God for it. The pain however continue to plague me years on.