Cancer Epidemic

Just too bad humanity is suffering from cancer...
Cancer is spreading like an epidemic now.

The financial, emotional and physical stress of cancer on humanity is punishing everyone to an extend that many are facing the end of their lives on a daily basis, whether those suffering directly or those implicated into suffering by their suffering spouses, parents, loved ones, etc.

Facing and still not coming to the end of their lives is a greater deal of suffering than facing an abrupt end, probably.

What a way to go..

In a way, it brings us to realize that we need to radically change the way we live our lives in which most of us are living in today.

P-ray more
L-earn more
E-njoy more
A-sk more
S-eek more
E-njoy some more

SHIT IS EVERYWHERE

SHIT is in the air
Everywhere I look around
SHIT is in the air
Every sight and every sound
And I don't know if I'm being foolish
Don't know if I'm being wise
But it's something that I must believe in
And it's there when I look in your eyes
SHIT is in the air
In the whisper of the tree
SHIT is in the air
In the thunder of the sea
And I don't know if I'm just dreaming
Don't know if I feel safe
But it's something that I Must believe in
And it's there when you call out my name
SHIT is in the air
SHIT is in the air
SHIT is in the air
In the rising of the sun
SHIT is in the air
When the day is nearly done
And I don't know if you are an illusion
Don't know if I see truth
But you are something that I must believe in
And you are there when I reach out for you
SHIT is in the air
Everywhere I look around
SHIT is in the air
Every sight and every sound
And I don't know if I'm being foolish
Don't know if I'm being wise
But it's something that I must believe in
And it's there when I look in your eyes
SHIT is in the air
SHIT is in the air
SHIT is in the air
SHIT is in the air

2013 Jan 9th

Dad packed his bags and left this morning. He arrived exactly one month ago.

Why do bad things happen to good people ? (no answers from me here)

When my mum died, a colleage gave me a book titled 'Why do bad things happen to good people ?'
I guess he should now look for another book 'Why does more and more bad things happen all the time to good people?'

Since its too late to start behaving bad in life, guess the only thing left to do is to prepare to deal with more and more bad stuff in life.

The other thing is also to consciously enjoy life significantly more than before everyday. Being positive should take a whole new level and meaning if you take it personally to make your life a more happy one ?

Well, that's a plan for a start.

What about stuff you don't have and would like to have ?  Considering the pros and cons of having it,
i guess it may be best to adapt the best of both worlds and try to create something new in life - -
something which will create a net positive effect in our own happiness index ? Although setting your 'index' with a long term view is dangerously important as it may be too late to modify your index after you whimsically decides its not reaally makes you happy after all !  Correcting some things in life may take so much a toll it will destroy a whole lot more happiness than you have created in the long run than the short term happiness created yesterday.


Avoiding negative thinking is very tough. Negative thinking keeps feeding into us with every visual, audio or mental stimulation you get on a constant basis in our lives.  A watchful state of mind would be too exhaustive to maintain. Conditioning our minds may take too long...  This is a tough one.
That is why people go to war. First they envy others. Then when they don't match up with what they've got, they try to match using other means. Then they show it off to others, trying to induce jealousy in others as it was induced in themselves in the begining. This competitive jealousy inducing acts eventually causes much hate, some times foolish counter-actions and an unhealthy state of mind. Its a vicious cycle.  I do not have any solution to this mental trap.


Sometimes the Buddhist ways quite make sense -  to let thoughts pass and meditate onto nothingness, experiencing the fabric of our mind.

Brokenness in the first Sunday of 2013

During the prayer for The Lord 's supper, I felt a deep , renewed sense if brokenness in my heart region.

The first Sunday and Lord's Supper in 2013 brought much doubt and pain since the mostly sleepless night I experienced hours ago.

Where is my faith in 2013????

How do I not feel sad over all these ?

When my daughter died during mum's cancer, my heart sank to the deepest pit in my life.

When mum suffered in her cancer journey with dad who suffered tremendously caring for her and dealing with issues with my brother, I asked , "how much worse can this get?" and "something good shall come out of this" in my effort to console my broken, shattered, disfigured, mutilated and lost heart.

All these years, I cling on with my feeble faith, as if grasping on the edge of the dangerous rocky cliff of the Himalayan mountain with the little finger of my left hand.

Four long, dreary years of guilt, pain, shame, humility, tears-run-dry, shaken, disillusioned, hopelessness, dumbfounded, worn, disheveled, disbelief, angst, anger, short changed, disappointed, forgotten and abandoned by nature, by God and His concerns.

The weariness at the end of all these we're greeted by the familiar darkness that came engulfing my little candle of hope - dashed ,puffed out with a final slap in my face.

Looks like dad's final journey - a walk that seems so despairing it reflects what darker paths ahead for my lonely walk.

What lies ahead for someone who no longer have a family? Probably among strangers in the community home or found dead on the streets on a cold night..

So, so, so sad...

Yet another sad point in my life

2006 mum had cancer
2008 mum died, my daughter died
2012 dad diagnosed with stomach cancer

It's Christmas season again.
21-12-2012 just passed with no signs of the end of the world, thanks to some great interpretations of the Mayan calendar, probably some Mayan decided to stop producing those bulky calendars at one point.

Oh dear, oh dear, what are we to do now?

I really don't know how.

Redeem me O Lord

I am so tired, scared and disappointed.
Oh Great Redeemer, whose name if Yahweh,
When will you rescue me?
For I cry out to Thee!!

Too salty

Chicken rice is a tad too salty today..

We are asked to be the salt and light of this fallen world, but when we are too salty - our words will surely be unpalatable.

Mid life crises it seems

Even apes faces mid life crises, it was reported.

My brother in law told me that he is currently facing one.

Well, at the very least he already has two kids towing the line...

And he happens not to be an ape...

or is he ?

Saddest point in my life

2006. When mum was diagnosed with cancer, my mere month old fetus in my wife's womb was pronounced deformed and probably dying.

Baby died. Stillborn.

Mum died too.

The saddest point of my life is upgraded daily. Every day, every moment, everytime I recount this tragedy, I realized myself that today ,indeed is the saddest point in my life.

ANAL LOGICS

he likes to use a particular analogy to deflect requests for annual increments.

To him, the need for more money is like a hygiene factor. There is never enough. And you just
need enough to survive.

Well ?

For himself, this analogy does not apply.

For me, his analogy is just an ANAL-LOGIC. Why? Coz it full of SHIT!

The ship that never sinks

You see, I am on this huge ship

-this huge ship that will never sink,

But you see this ship is one where

-people keep jumping off,

Some get pushed down by other suicidal ones

BUT this ship never sinks.

The Stupid Hermaphrodite

While walking down the hill, an idiot felt thirsty and squatted by the meandering river to sip water.  'Yucks!', she spat, the water tasted like a concoction of faeces and urine.  She shook and flapped her palms violently and shook her big head violently, thinking 'This water tastes a little bit like shit!'.

Then she got up and continued her downhill track thinking to herself, 'Maybe the water down the stream will taste sweeter', smiling to herself.

Lessons in Life#2 Avoid riding the emotional roller coaster of another

Don't ride the emotional roller coaster rides of others
by not accepting their offer in the first place to join their ride
Avoid unecessary communication with her,
Keep your distance from her

Her words, expressions and body language
Are the tickets to join her emotional ride
Keep your distance from her
Drive in safe emotional distance

Don't start giving in to her
Sympathy is of no value here
For trickery is the order of the day
You'll regret the moment her 'wind' change.

Like a sudden, uncertain wind that spins havoc
Wrecks and brings everything down
Beware of this insane person,
Better be safe than sorry

Lessons in Life#1 It's kinder to be harsh

Basically you order what you serve others
Whether or not you realize it
Whether or not you are aware of your behaviour
People will not keep taking all your non-sense.

So especially for those who have been serving shit
and expecting to receive ice-cream, cash & promotions
I tell you the truth, you only get back shit - many times fold
Yes - more than you could ever imagined!

"Its kinder to be harsh than to be even harsher later."
There is a limit in everything.

STRICT Guidelines on how to deal with people in Category 'F'

1. First thing in the morning as you sit down, remind yourself that this fellow is CATEGORY F.
2. Next, remind yourself you intend to focus on the agenda of the day, this fellow is NOT in agenda.
3. Third - put this fellow into the intended corner - the Category F corner, the place for unrecyclable trash!
4. Get on with the important stuff of the day.
5. Whenever you are annoyed or reminded of this fella, remember point 1.

Friendship

The best of friends sits next to each other uttering not a single word, yet experience the best of friendship. True relationships are often beyond words - limited by language itself, articulation and comprehension.

Hemaphrodite's antiques

Ah... the mood swings of a hermaphrodite,
At times, its allright
During other days, it swings up to the treetops
Today, its in the shit hole

Laziness, work-avoiding antiques,
they all creep into her ways,
responding in childish, irresponsible ways
All i can do is wait for God's righteous right hand to strike.

New Rule for Category 'F' people

New Rule with effect from 25thMarch2012.

For people categorized under category 'F',I shall no longer put anymore attention.