Thirty Years Later

Thirty Years Later (Deja vu)

Deja vu. I am experiencing the same situation I faced when I was a child. Once as a little child I was attending a funeral. There, I thought to myself, "I do not feel sad.I think I could laugh. Am I feeling neutral or do I not have compassion ?"

Thirty years later. I ask myself again the same question when I see so many scenes of suffering around me for so many years, including my own.

Reassessment:
I have suffered - emotionally and physically in the past thirty years. The fear remains there to haunt me now and then. The sympathy I have for others seemed to have faded - knowing that it does not really help.

Dharma(Duties/Path). Temporary Dharma of the body, Eternal Dharma of the soul. Eternity is beyond me. Can only see the immediate, hence, only performing my duties.

Passion. Losing it.
Security, Trust in others. Lost both.
Senses. Still there, I think.
Attachment. Definitely there - to Dharma, Senses.

Hare Krishna.