Guqin-Living in the Mountain by Gong Yi

My oh my...

2nd June 2011

My oh my....
Did it feel less painful now ?
Or is there no longer any feeling left in me ?

Fly my lovely dove,
Fly over the river , across the bridges
See your reflection by the still lakes
Display your graceful wings to the photographer

My lovely dove
Where thou art my lovely babe
When all else fail
My heart shall not reveal

The useless cat, dumb dog and the heartless human

The useless cat, dumb dog and the heartless human

A man kept one dog and one cat
the cat made slave of the man
the dog was chained all the time
the man lost his heart
the cat was hated by his neighbours
the dog chased motorcycles and sniff at muslims
the man lost his heart
the cat was sent away
the dog got castrated
the man lost his heart
the cat was never mentioned, but there were other cats
the dog was sent away and back, and away again
the man lost his heart, forever.

Tears in Heaven

I have no right to be angry because Abba, our Heavenly Father is my Lord and my God. Extreme sadness enveloped my heart this morning when i see some pictures my friends' children... oh God the heart wrenching pain is unbearable. I have No right to be angry. She would have been 3 years now. I await the day I see her in Heaven.

I have not lost her, but we will be separated for a while...Oh God, please have mercy on me oh Lord. Please do not turn your face away from me oh Lord but shine your beautiful face on me oh Lord, otherwise I will be deep in the pit like many others; Lift up my soul oh Lord for my soul will only be lifted up for You.

Unforgiving heart versus suffering injustice

The good guys always get bullied and beaten up. The evil, loud, strong and arrogant ones at the upper hand.

Same goes to the government. The roots of corruption grows deep and far. The clean ones are considered the black sheep. The black sheep eventually gets shot.

Life's like that.

Depressing but true.

Yet another reflection of my personal life.

They say that we humans are all unrighteous and if God chooses to punish the corrupt and evil ones, we all get punished together anyway...

tough call... better to have an unforgiving heart or to suffer injustice not knowing whether it will be served ?

Just because its f**kin fathers'/mothers' day!

Just because its f**kin fathers' day or mothers' day , so they get to eat for free ?

How about a new marketing gimmick where single parents, widows, orphans, those with dead children gets to eat for free ??

Sinking boat

Don't know how much longer. How much longer can i keep this boat from sinking.

A new reserve

A dull pain in heart, tears well up in my chest
..waiting to pour out at the prospect of an invite.

The pain is still there, after all these years, though tears seem to have ran dry. or is it ? Suddenly a new undiscovered reserve of fresh tear supply is felt just beneath the heart.

The key that unlocks the reserve is nearby in the neighborhood. But is it going to help ?

Despair

God knows how my heart is burdened
And every-day, despaired
Bleeding, not seen the light
Hooked and wounded by burdens, no end in sight.

Epitaph on a Tyrant

Now..

(Source : www.Poets.org , Epitaph on a Tyrant by W. H. Auden ; http://www.poets.org/viewmedia.php/prmMID/15548)

Some 40 years ago...

The mangy dog awaits his bone.

The mangy dog barked furiously at 5pm yesterday.

Tried to appease it but couldn't find any bone. Ran out of bones.

I thought I could get one at 6:30pm so i told the dog to be patient.
It didn't heed any of my advise.

6:30 came without any bones. Too bad.

I found out that the bones will come in by 7:15 or so.

"A tiny brain expects invulnerability" is like one who lives on the iceberg and doesn't know 99% of the mass is under his feet. So his prima donna attitude continues to feed the ugly and fat monster - its becoming fatter and uglier by the minute.

Live goes on.

Finally bone arrives 8:15pm. The spoilt brat seems appeased ... for a while.

Mixed Twins

27 October 09

Wholemeal with Raisins
Bengali style soft white bread.

Recipe for

Dear all

anyone got recipe for success, fulfillment and happiness ?

as usual, please try out before you share

but then, it may take a lifetime to try...

Mess

A mess is the place where military personnel socialise, eat, and (in some cases) live. In some societies this military usage has extended to other disciplined services eateries such as civilian fire fighting and police forces. The root of "mess" is the Old French "mes," portion of food, drawn from the Latin verb "mittere," meaning "to send" or "to put," the original sense being "a course of a meal put on the table." This sense of "mess," which appeared in English in the 13th century, was often used for cooked or liquid dishes in particular, as in the "mess of pottage" (porridge or soup) for which Esau in Genesis traded his birthright. By the 15th century, a group of people who ate together was also known as a "mess," and it is this sense that persists in the "mess halls" of today's military.

References : http://freepages.military.rootsweb.ancestry.com/~worldwarone/WWI/MilitaryCamps/CampCuster/

Fresh from the oven

"Hello world!", said the newly born twins.

Prayer of Thanks for Answered Prayers

Dear Lord O Father in Heaven

Just wanted to give you Thanks for answered prayers
Thank You Lord for having my father spend time with me,
Thank You Lord for removing my vertigo in less than 2 minutes !
Thank You Lord for repairing the roof leak with little hassle & resources.

In Jesus' name, Amen.

Vertigo Cure

3Ps

Remembering my brother-in-law's words today, he told me to

1. Be Patient in non-believers' idol worships.
2. Be Polite when choosing not to participate with their worships.
3. Be Prayerful as I continue to pray to Our Lord in my own ways.

Eternity

Unless Eternity goes on maternity, I have no use for paternity.

Meanwhile I will wait for Eternity.

Go on, Dig in.

Go on, dig in...

They decided to make a huge hole in front of the house and

make a mess of the front walkway.