After all these years I guess we must learn to accept the will of our only God.
What is the end if the road we cannot change unless He willed for it. There is only one Jesus - God's only begotten Son. The Son of Man, as he often called himself, was only resurrected once and will pay earth a second, upcoming visit - only this time not as a baby but as an adult Jesus. Other than Lazarus, I don't expect any resurrections from now till The Son of Man revisits.
When God has decided, we can only accept.
If it's the end if the road for now, it means the end if the road for now.
God forgive me for my sins and my faithlessness, hopelessness and selfishness in failure to see beyond this body and this earth and cosmic plane.